From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were—I have not seen
As others saw—I could not bring
My passions from a common spring—
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow—I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone—
And all I lov'd—I lov'd alone—
Then—in my childhood—in the dawn
Of a most stormy life—was drawn
From ev’ry depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still—
From the torrent, or the fountain—
From the red cliff of the mountain—
From the sun that ’round me roll’d
In its autumn tint of gold—
From the lightning in the sky
As it pass’d me flying by—
From the thunder, and the storm—
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view—
In this blog I am going to post whatever I feel like posting. Whatever I am obsessing with at the moment, whatever I like. Some of it include: The Following, American Horror Story, Adan Canto, Alex Pettyfer, Nico Tortorella, Evan Peters & more...
Follow and stick around if you like any of these, I always follow back.
I admit I was not one of Emma’s biggest fans during season 1, especially after she backstabbed Jacob and Paul (whether she had a good reason to do it or not). And then things got worse after Paul died until eventually she got rid of poor Jacob, because she could not choose between her love for him and her devotion to Joe. It hurt me what she did and made me dislike her even more. So yeah, I was definitely not Team Emma at all.
Once season 2 started, I noticed that things were different and I suddenly found myself feeling good about the fact that Emma was still around, I don’t know if it’s because we really did not have any old followers left and she was the only connection to season one. Then I don’t know… seeing her lost, alone, vulnerable, so real for the very first time… I started growing attached to her. And I am rooting for her to make it through everything because she has become my favorite.
SO that said, yesterday was NOT OKAY. Oh my God, I can’t remember the last time I freaked out this much during an episode of The Following. It was probably back in season 1 when Jacob was dealing with dying Paul… and so that is saying a lot for me, really. I completely panicked when they took Emma for the sacrifice and she was terrified, it was awful. Seeing Joe trying to move but really seemingly not putting much effort into it (to be honest) was heartbreaking. Emma must have felt abandoned all over again, imagine how scary must have been to have those insane people cheering while one is slitting your wrists and drinking your blood and at the same time you are watching the man you gave up everything for just sitting there, looking, not moving. Oh my God my heart was pounding so hard that I could hear it… It was super terrifying. In my mind I was like: Ok I am 100% done with this show, I cannot keep watching and getting hurt over and over again. They are going to kill all my favorites… and Emma does not deserve this senseless cruel death by the hand of a bunch of freaks. On this note, seriously that Micah?? Very lame. I do not see charm or charisma in him, not a bit. Why the hell would all those people live with him and do that stuff? It is beyond me.
But anyway back to the point… things got VERY scary yesterday. I felt overwhelmed, and then they showed Joe pacing back and forth and Mandy sitting on the bed…my heart dropped, I was thinking: Oh my God it’s over, they really did kill her. Omg omg omg. Until that woman said she is still alive… I can’t tell you what a relief. Even though now things are gonna be so difficult for Emma to deal with, I know she is strong enough for it and she needs to get back to her old badass completely unafraid self. She needs it. She cannot be vulnerable anymore. And even though I learned to detach myself from my intense feelings toward season 1, I have to say on this note that she should have stayed with Jacob. Jacob truly loved her, unconditionally. It was a selfless love. Joe does not love her like that, there is always something else that he needs to do or that he wants, it is not enough for him. And she will always be a lost puppy following him around, honestly. So frustrating.
I guess this got long enough. But I really needed to share my feelings. If you want to talk about this or anything The Following, I am super glad to do it :)
Long live Emma!!!!